This came to mind as I was being walked out of the building on Monday after being let go. Almost 7 years of service and my position was "eliminated." Whatever. I think there is more to it judging by some of the people in the company who are still around but who am I to say anything? So many emotions in the past few days.....anger, fear, sadness. Monday is just a blur but Tuesday...well, that is when it hit me. Didn't have an alarm go off....didn't get in the car with my carpool buddy to ride to work....nope, that is when I realized that Monday was not a nightmare and that it really happened. The way the whole thing went down was awful and I hope that no one has to go through that because it's a horrible feeling. Now, I am more sad than anything that I have no closure with the people who made coming to work okay when it really wasn't. I know I will see and talk to you all again but it's so different.....you are who helped me through the last year or so when work got so bad. The carpool therapy sessions, coffee clubs, visit to the 2nd and 4th floor when I needed to get away from my desk, dominoes, bake sales, co-workers/friends who really understood me, and the kind people who just listened. That is what makes me so sad.....I know things can't stay the same forever, but it sucks that they ended so abruptly.
So, don't think that you are safe in your job, because you aren't. Don't keep a bunch of stuff at work because having to pack it up at a moments notice sucks. Have your resume up to date now.......you never know what the next meeting planner is going to bring you.
Thank you to all of you who are my friends.....you know who you are and I am thankful for you. Thanks to all who called, emailed, texted and posted on facebook and who have showed interest in my well being. I am so appreciative to all of you for caring.
I am headed to Alaska bright and early tomorrow and I am so excited. I am going to forget the events of the past few days and just have fun with my teammates and have a great time taking care of another 13.1 miles in the name of blood cancer research. My loss of job is nothing compared to what others go through so I will never stop helping in that arena, no matter what. You can keep up with me on facebook of course or here....I will try and blog during race weekend but can't promise anything. Thanks again for all of your support that got me to my fundraising goal for this trip....I couldn't have done it without you.
Stay tuned......
